voice

my friend ben recorded our entire 48hop. there are a few sessions i'm anxious to hear, but our last session of the 'nightwatch' was 4am-6am. by the time we ended we couldn't see straight, so when ben brought up a few things we'd prayed in that session it was one of those exciting 'oh yeah! i forgot about that!! how cool!!!' moments. it was really cool that he burned me a copy of that session. listening to it in my car that past few days has been incredible. what a deluge of imagery and concepts, all so familiar yet so unique and new. how does God do that?

but on a much less spiritual note... i have to say it's pretty odd to hear your own voice recorded. when i mentioned it to my friend jov he asked if it inflated my ego. the truth is it did nothing for me. all i can think is how much i sound like my sister, ruth.

i've been singing since i was about 7. my parents are both very musical, and my dad taught the 3 of us youngest sibs to sing a capella 3-part. jenny was melody, ruth was alto and i was tenor. we sang for stuff at church, then later in home-school talent shows (yes, we were one of 'those' families). as i got older i sang in the choir at church for about 4 years. i even had a job as a singing hostess in a swiss-german restaurant called 'the matterhorn' where i sang mostly songs from the movie sound of music. funny that, since the story actually takes place in austria. whatever sells the fondue, i guess.



singing has always been a major creative outlet, with my voice as my instrument. the strange thing is that in all the years i've been singing i've never really heard myself recorded. i had trouble explaining to jov that it did nothing for me, negative or positive, to hear myself. it reinforced my neutral take that i sing better than some and not so well as others. to some it may have been an inspiring moment...to me it was just weird.