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i feel see-through.
that's not a bad thing, it just feels funny because it's so rare that i'm this aware of being seen. there's so much in my heart and i feel like i'm cracked open and everything is visible before God. i know it's always visible, but i'm not always in tune enough with what's going on in my own heart to be able to see it along with Him.
this weekend we did 24-hours of prayer in st johns an area north of most of portland, but still part of the city. the focus of this 24 was to thank God for what He's said and done through all the other 24s and 48s we've done this summer. it was really good, but i haven't slept much these last two nights.
on saturday afternoon we finished our 24 and renee, kathleen and i headed to salem (about an hour south down I5) to participate in the last hour of a 24-7 prayer week the salem house of prayer was putting on. part of the reason we went was to support their 24-7 prayer week, but partly it was to connect with the couple running it, since he's also going to the thing in dresden that we'll be at. it was really awesome to be there and see someone else doing what we do, but so close to home.
we drove back to portland and went to a prophetic gathering. God said some pretty amazing things to me there, and confirmed in my heart what i've been feeling is a word for 24-7 (that's the name of the group we're going to europe to visit). i felt about two months ago that God was going to send me with a word, and to ask Him for it, so i have been. over the weekend He's really solidified it in my heart, and i'm going to spend some time studying the things i've heard before we head out next weekend.
so all that to say that this weekend has left me very aware of the things God has been brewing in my heart over the last couple months. i feel so small compared to the things He's said, but such a peace that is founded in the fact that He considers me friend enough to share His thoughts with me.
this weekend also reminded me of what amazing people He's put in my life to share this journey. jben is on a team that went to mississippi for a week, so unless he is able to go to germany with us i won't be seeing him until january at the earliest, since he's going back to australia while i'm on my trip. it's amazing how connected you become to people when you're focused on the same things. somehow over the summer ben has gotten to be one of my best friends, and i miss him dearly already.
my heart is full, my mind is full, my expectations are overflowing and i have an intese sense that my life is about to pivot. this is the last week of sheena as we know her. :-) i have no idea what is in store on this trip, but i can't wait!
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Sheena, it was great to meet you this w/e in my dear St John's neighborhood.
Were you at the Kim Clement mtg Sat night? I was there with my two kids and yes, I heard God too. My kids also had an encounter with the Lord that I will have to tell you about sometime.
So I don't know you that well, are you going on a trip? Details, when, where, why?????
Bless ya...........Pam
the story (i'll try to make it the abbv. version) is that after our trip last august i felt my next non-work trip should be a tour of prayer rooms that 24-7 runs called boiler rooms, and i felt strongly that my friend kathleen should be there with me.
last december durring a really slow day at work i pulled out my calander and figured out when i'd have enough vacation time saved. since i work in travel i started to plan a trip and look at how much money i would need to save. the next night was our company christmas party, and i won airfare for two and 3 nights hotel for use in europe. i also get one free eurail pass for myself and a companion every year i work here.
needless to say it was a pretty big confirmation in my mind. my dates have modified by a few days from the dates i picked in december, but the day i circled on my calendar to be in europe ended up being the first day of 24-7's international leader's gathering (ilg), which i'll be attending. the cool thing about the ilg is that i'll see a bunch of people that live all over the world, blog buddies and flesh-and-blood buddies!
kathleen and i are going to prague first, then to the gathering in dresden. from there we're going to berlin to hang out with our friend pete and then on to the uk for the last week and a half, visiting boiler rooms and staying with friends in edinburgh. renee and jben are joining us for the dresden portion.
so there's the scoop. my vacation is become a ministry trip, whick i'm fine with. i'm getting really out-of-my-mind excited. it's hard to focus at work!
be safe. i'll be praying and see ya soon!
Way cool! I love hearing how God confirms things and coordinates life. I hope you'll be able to blog from overseas. Boiler rooms? You'll have to explain this expression to me sometime.
I'm looking forward to hearing all that Jesus will inspire you with as you visit those nations and places and people that He's intersecting you with.
Bless ya!
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