castles
last night i turned on the tv before i went to bed. i just happened to catch a show the travel channel was doing about british castles, and i turned to it right when they were doing the bit on edinburgh castle. it's so strange to see stuff on tv showing far-away places you know and love. it made me wish i was already there.
it's a good thing i'm so taken with that city, because it really is insane of me to be starting my life over at 30 in a country that won't let me work. i'm not sure what i'm getting myself into. i'm more and more wondering how my life will look in a year. where the heck will i live? where will i spend the holidays? how will i afford to buy gifts? will anyone come visit me? it's a little difficult for me to avoid letting questions overrun my brain whenever i think of moving.
the other thing i worry about is raising support. i feel strange asking people to support me, and i'm not really sure how to go about it. i feel like a moocher, but i don't think other people that live off support are moochers. i just need to see myself the way i see them. easy enough, right? (by the way, if anyone is reading this that is supported so they can be in ministry, do you have anything helpful to say about raising support?) one of the challenges is that the cost of living there is about double what it is for me here, so i have to raise twice the amount i'd need to live here. why can't i be going to peru or guatemala?
so i'm eagerly anticipating a move i'm anxious and worried about, and running full-speed ahead to an adventure that just might kill me. isn't that the way life goes?
1 comment:
I always try to remember how good I feel about giving. How much I love to give to others and how blessed I feel to be able to give. I think of how the Lord has led me to give money to people at specific times and how that answered a specific prayer of theirs that was unspoken. All of this I remember when someone gives me a gift of support and I realize that I just gave them the privelege of serving a part of the body of Christ in a way that is meaningful to them. It blesses me, but more than that it allows the work of the Kingdom to be done...that just shows we need the WHOLE body to work it out together. does that make sense?
that said, I am not the best fundraiser in the world, I am more of the Hudson Taylor type who just prayed in the money that was needed. But I am not always very good at that either. HOWEVER I do KNOW different ways of going about it and would be happy to share those with you.....more excuses to get together!
and one more thing....you know we will be there to visit you since we love that city as much as you do!!
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