distracted

life just moves right along, doesn't it? it's been ages since i've posted anything. work has gotten crazy, so i've been coming home and zoning out. tonight i figured i'd at least pretend i had something interesting to say since i have such a massive following that hangs on my every blog.


all sarcasm aside, life really has been interesting. hard, fun, busy and quiet all at the same time. i'm settling into a little routine and trying to make some good habits. at the same time i'm keenly aware that the day-to-day will shortly make way for the biggest adventure of my life to date, my not-so-distant move out of the country. today i found one-way fares to edinburgh for under $500. it's a little scary to see how feasible this really is.

also in the forefront of my attention right is the wake of the choices of a few of my dear friends that have walked a way from their faith and relationships in our close-knit community, and one even his wife and child. it's intense and painful. it also causes a tsunami of determination to rise up in my heart to look with eyes of grace on the offenders, and to do all i can to support those left behind to pick up the pieces. somehow in all that determination i keep forgetting that i'm bothered by this too, and keep finding myself randomly moved to tears about my own loss in all of this. these are my friends, and like family to me. these are people i never thought would make such self-focused and self-destructive choices, and it's just plain painful to know the path they walk will bring nothing but hurt and shame.


so, as you see, my life is one big adventure right now, distracting me from the ever-important blog. i hope to do a bit better this week keeping up. i have plenty to write about, and some hot pictures of saturday night's 80's party. i took a vacation day for my birthday this upcoming friday to go museum-hopping with as many friends as i could convince to take the day off or call in sick. we're hitting the hesse exhibit at the portland art museum and the oregon history museum for the lewis and clark bicentennial exhibition. it will seem a bit strange visiting museums without my friend pete, but we'll have to make do somehow.