frail

i popped in a jars of clay's much afraid album today on my way to work. it's an 8 or 10 year old album, but still pretty darn good. one song really moved me. it's called 'frail'. i found myself in tears (big surprise for me, right?) as i listened to how clearly the song describes my struggle to receive grace, forgive myself and be honest about my need for Him. i posted the lyrics below...

'frail'

convinced of my deception
i've always been a fool
i fear this love reaction
just like you said I would

a rose could never lie
about the love it brings
and I could never promise
to be any of those things

if I was not so weak
if I was not so cold
if I was not so scared of being broken
growing old
i would be...

blessed are the shallow
depth they'll never find
seemed to be some comfort
in rooms I try to hide

exposed beyond the shadows
you take the cup from me
your dirt removes my blindness
your pain becomes my peace

if I was not so weak
if I was not so cold
if I was not so scared of being broken
growing old
i would be frail