drama
it's all around me. i know i need to get this out of my head but i won't have time until tonight after work. i'm throwing a bit of this down now just to get myself started.
one of my sisters cut my dad out of her life yesterday. talk about drama. as you can imagine, this was the culmination of many years of drama simmering under the surface, and part of a larger picture that God has lately been pressing my heart to pray more for. i know what God wants of me, how he wants me to walk out my part of this, and it's not cutting dad out of my life. it would be so much easier if it was, but it's not about me. it's about dad and mom and the grace of God being there to help them walk out the healing He has waiting for them. it's about people learning to live from a place of loving God and responding to His heart, and not covered in shame trying to self-protect and hide how little we really have it together.
the fact that my family of origin has never been healthy or functional is the hardest part to have back in my face. the beautiful part is the family God's given me that isn't flesh and blood family, but heart family. His family. He's surrounded me with support that isn't emotionally involved in the situation.
i love my sister. i love my dad. i love everyone involved in this and i want to see them all whole in the love of God. please keep me (and my family) in prayers so i'll have the courage to have the difficult conversations i now need to have.
6 comments:
not to sound too "dear Abbey" but you need to step back from this. this is a distraction. i know they're your family, but your sister is creater her own weather. you can't keep getting sucked into. try to step away from the role you've always played in the family. you can't fix, only God can. ask the Lord what your specific role is from Him to do, and do know more than that. you can't get on your sister's roller coaster. you're not called to that. it sad situation and i know its easy to say, but chiiiilllllll
i typed too furiously and did some really bad typos and ommisions (sp?). i hope you can understand what i was trying to say.
no abbey, you're exactly right. :-) i can't afford to get sucked in to my sister's drama...Lord knows i have plenty of my own!
it was interesting to be able to see clearly that the lure of the enemy was to allow myself to get worked up over this. i've been praying about it alot and i really really have peace even though it all hit the fan. i'm just continuing to pray for wisdom.
thank you, linda! i can't wait to hear about the launch.
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