green eyes

coldplay really shouldn't have written a song about me. it's a little embarrasing. thankfully they didn't use my name. immagine the publicity!

i seem to be re-finding my sense of humor. thank God. it's really rough when you think a good cry will make you feel better and it doesn't. it's worse when you go at it again and you still don't feel better. that was my monday. work's been really sucky lately, and so slow that not only can i count on one hand the entire total of the calls i took in my lovely 8 hours today, but the calls are so infrequent i can't remeber how to impliment the volumes of information thrown at me in the last three weeks of training. i thank the Lord He made me good at the schmooze so my callers don't know how inept i truly am. it's been a little stressful. since it's so slow i asked for friday off. a 3-day weekend should help immensely. it certainly never hurts.

the roomate i thought i had seems to have dematerialized. she's got some prior committments that don't let it work out. i'm not sure what God has in mind and i'm trying to be okay with it. transition can be so frustrating as i never seem to remember that it doesn't ever go the way it 'should'. God always makes things better than i think they will be because He loves me. that's what i must constantly remind myself right now.

i need sleep. good night.