wedding

how can a wedding be so stressful when i'm not the one getting married? i'm just a bridesmaid. all i have to do is wear the funny dress and walk down the isle before the bride does, right? wrong. in the next 2 days i still have shoes to buy, nails and pedicure to get, shawl to buy and packing for the night before the wedding that we girls are spending at a hotel. i also have to squeeze in practice time for 'the song'.

actually, the dress is pretty nice - especially for a bridesmaid dress! i altered it myself (i'm very smug about it, too) and it looks just like a pro did it. i feel only normal levels of 'i look fat in this'. the thing i'm feeling the most nervous about is singing.

when they first became engaged they asked me to write a song to do at their wedding. i said yes, but with the out that if i couldn't come up with anything by february they could pick a song for me to sing. needless to say, they ended up picking a song. it's a nice sappy christian love/wedding song, perfectly in my range, and my friend nathan is playing guitar for me.

the problem is that i don't like to solo. i don't like it at all. i get super nervous. strange, since i've been singing in front of people since i was about 6...but always with a group. i'm sure i came out of the womb singing, so i'm not worried that i sound bad, i just feel uncomfortable being up there alone. i love singing backup with a band, and the feeling of being one element of a big sound. so many of my friends are such talented musicians that it's amazing to rock with them. this will be nothing like that. i also find the post-solo compliments awkward. come to think of it, i pretty much find all compliments awkward.

so i'm trying not to think about it. it'll be what it is and the happy couple will be so happy they won't even remember my song. as long as i can keep in mind there's champagne and a dance floor at the end of it all i should be fine.

i'll let you know how it goes.